Excruciating Suffering: My Battle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Holly Hawkins
Holly Hawkins

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